I've survived over 10 years of #narcissisticAbuse in my marriage. I've been only beginning to reclaim my reality after having lived in their reality in which I was defective, overly emotional, needy, and largely good for nothing.
Life has been overall good to me recently. I'm in a wonderful new relationship. I'm building a support network with people who genuinely care about me and my well-being. I'm learning to be more kind to myself. It's hard work but it's worth it.
Despite all of that what remains is this intangible sense of sadness. A persistent low-key melancholy. I used to be a person who genuinely believed that everyone was trying to do their best in their own unique way. That we all were in the same boat that is life and nobody, regardless of their lived experience, was trying to rock it just for their own enjoyment.
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